I love you, ..brother, ..friend, ..world. I’m sorry I don’t tell or show you this. I do.
I want to tell you that I do care. I always did. I seam to not know how to let you know. How to communicate to you.
Sometimes I don’t know any better, I’m no stranger to ignorance and procrastination either.
But I also want to tell you that I’ve changed.. I guess I’ve always been changing a bit, learning a bit, realizing a bit. I’ve always wanted to improve.. I guess because I’ve always seen a need to improve my self. I keep realizing mistakes that I’ve done, and try to value the lessons learned. I’ve been careless.. too careless. I’m sorry, i realize at times I’ve let down, probably at times in a shocking way.
I know I’ve still got a long way to go. Maybe we all have. I feel that I have to catch up sometimes. And sometimes I know that’s true.
I’ve been undecided, I’ve been irresponsible, i had let my self go. I’ve created expectations and have disappointed. I know I’ve also had success, I don’t remember the average but I remember the particular times that I regret disappointing. I could have done better.
You’ll probably still have to bare with me sometimes. If that happens, again, I hope you’ll help me see that I’m worth it. We all are. I know we can do wonderful things and have a great time together.
Please let me know of my faults so that I can improve and look you in the eye with opened mind and honesty. I might be difficult, stubborn, maybe in denial. Build your arguments around my feedback if it’s contradictory, I’ll try to do the same. Thank you for your effort to not let hasty reactions be an impediment for improvement.